I have been to see my OB-GYN and I was told that I may have to undergo a hysterectomy in April or May. I cannot say I was surprised: doctors said the same thing to my mother when she was my age; my sister lost one ovary when she was in her late 20s. We have a genetic predisposition to myomae and cysts.
I’m not sad. I am apprehensive about getting a clearance from a cardiologist. Before getting this clearance, I will undergo a cardiac work-up, and for sure, the condition of my heart will be discovered…
I am not worried about the financial cost. The first doctor I consulted told me to prepare at least P80,000.00. When I went for a second opinion at the PGH, I was told to prepare at least P35,000.00. P35,000.00 is a much more manageable amount than P80,000.00
But then, I don’t quite know if I have already made up my mind about going for the surgery. Every doctor has asked me if I am in pain and I am not. Everyone asks me how I feel and I cringe when I see the disappointment in their eyes when I tell them that I don’t feel any different. It’s only when I have my period that I experience pain.
I have totally surrendered to God my health. I recognize His right to decide on the matter. My body is a temple of the Holy Ghost. God created me and so he owns me. He died on the cross to save me and so he owns me by redemption. I told God that I am ready to have or not to have surgery.
I asked God, though, that if He decides that I should undergo surgery, could he give me a temporary housekeeper who will stay with the kids? They will be on vacation from school, so they will need someone with them while I am at the hospital. I also asked God to secure the cardiac clearance for me and to supply the need.
So, to all who want to know if I am having the surgery in April or not, the answer is: I am still waiting for God to open the way.